"Q & A with the Creator" - from Feb. 2008

In February of 2008, I spent 3 days completely alone to do some soul searching. During that time I did a fair amount of free writing, and one session yielded the following Q & A with Creator. It is as pertinent for me today as it was then. It is edited for the number of questions due to personal content. The rest is re-typed as originally written, and I hope you will find the dialogue to be useful.

"Q. (Me) Why am I writing this?
A. (Creator) Writing is a flow and can be accomplished easily and without much conscious thought. You need to let go your conscious process to tap into deeper experience. Yin is ready to receive from you and from universe. Be open & free of restriction & binding thought. Your need to control is strong and can be dissipated quickly if & when open to doing so. Fear is a key factor in all this movement, and escape of it is a really important piece. Find your inner satisfaction with what is. Be open to now.

Q. What is "now"?
A. Now is here. Fear is not now. Fear is then and there. Now is free. Walk openly through now to find peace. Why fight it? You do this with your daughter already. She is your guide. Harbor no grudges; hold no remorse or anxiety. Embrace love & life. It is all you have. Yes, your resources are greater than you think.

Q. What is my purpose?
A. Your purpose is many-fold. Your experience is limited but very full indeed. Your concern is interesting but unnecessary. Weave thoughts openly thru your existence to achieve understandings not necessarily desired or expected. Live & be free of worry or doubt. To flow with the field in harmony and creation. Feel what is to be felt and know what is to be known. You are human and immortal together. This can be difficult to reconcile before you're ready.

Q. Why do we agree to come down & experience such pain?
A. Our souls do not interpret pain in the same way our bodies & minds do. It is more an adventure that a state or emotion.

Q. Where does pain come form and why is it more attended to than love or joy?
A. The old field encouraged these processes. Be aware of the old ways within yourself. Shed when you can in favor of unfettered awareness & fulfillment.

Q. These answers are so nebulous...why?
A. You are not ready to receive all that is known.

Q. Will I ever be?
A. No.

Q. Why not?
A. Life is too full & profound to be totally aware of. Life as you use the word is not all life as it exists. There is life in between "lives" that is rich & full & totally different in design & experience. Do not be afraid to learn - do not be too eager either. You already know how looking forward can cause setbacks. Learn thru experience whenever possible. Be aware vs. beware.

Q. What kind of idealist am I? A. Total

Q. What is "TOTAL"?
A. Open to all possibility, chance, choice, no limits. You get frustrated when the ideal isn't met in life. Cares about judgement & completion still permeate your thoughts. Release the need to be "perfect". Acknowledge what is. You are perfect right now.

Q. Who am I?
A. An enlightened being struggling to identify a quantity and choice for comfortable being. You are specially designed for travel & discovery. Be enthralled with your essence. You are a god. Be godlike. A native son. Father of time. You are all things.

Q. Is my soul at peace?
A. Yes.

Q. Why am I not?
A. Haste, mistrust, averice, angst, fear, resolve, reluctance, indecision, pain, history, old ways.

Q. Who or What are you?
A. All things, myth, legend, reality, conjecture, creation. I am the source of light & love.

Q. What is life about?
A. Enjoyment, fulfillment, satisfaction, learning, living. It is a process without an end.

Q. Why so much pain for so long - no enjoyment there?
A. Mistake, sorry, undesirable, process.

Q. Why would a soul agree to such discomfort & intrusion?
A. Self-righteous, self-exploration, curiosity, ignorance, indifference, obligation, Karma, desire to learn. Soul does not actually experience pain, the physical body/energy does.

Q. Does the souls understand pain & discomfort and what it can mean?
A. Yes, tho not as you experience it. Souls are now aware of the implications & end result.

Q.Why can't souls eradicate "attached" energies and altered energy systems back to a "clean slate"?
A. Not necessary; it will happen in the new system/field.

Q. Why does the "process" seem so arduous & difficult?
A. It's an awakening and because the conscious is limited, it takes time to complete.

Q. Why is the conscious limited?
A. Safety, rationality.

Q. Do souls have the power to realign?
A. Yes.

Q. Why not just "realign" then & be in the new field?
A. Doesn't work that way. Karma is still a universal law - altho it acts differently in the new field. Honor contracts..." (and then I got frustrated and quit writing).


There are a ton of ideas and concepts to ponder here, but the main theme of the answers is to not give much attention to figuring things out. "Learn by experience whenever possible" is one of the most prominent pieces for me. My next writing session produced an article entitled "Living and Learning In The Moment". I posted it as a blog just prior to this entry for your review. The article presents the idea that we learn best by simply expereincing the moment, a naturally occuring ability which we are quickly taught as children to put aside in favor of thought and intellect.

What is the easiest way for you to tap into to your inner wisdom?
How much of "now" are you experiencing, and how much are you looking forward or backwards, away from now?