Heating Up Again - Finally

"Welcome back to the sauna" I thought as I stepped in today for the first time in weeks. I was excited to be exercising and allowing myself some quality alone time after not doing it for some time. Felt darn good! The workout was pretty decent, but the sauna was wonderful. I do so enjoy the experience.

Many, many changes for me lately, continuing the ongoing "transformations" so many are experiencing these days. Something must be happening because on Monday, I enjoyed a whole day of something that has been scarce for quite a while. I was inexplicably happy. No known cause or event to attribute it to, just happy and noticing the happiness also. At times I was openly laughing or just giggling about the smallest things. It was great! The laughing is important for more than just the obvious reasons. I learned recently that what I formerly thought was a nervous laugh, which would occur at the most interesting and sometimes uncomfortable times, is actually a "laugh of truth". When I have an awareness that resonates with my essence, often the laugh comes with it. Nice! Could a sign or signal be more perfect? I don't think so. I love it!

So there I am, sweatin' in the hot box, listenin' to the tunes of the day. I chose my first workout CD which I've heard at least 25 times. I compiled a list of songs and burned a disk for my listening pleasure. I have several. I had been listening during the workout portion too, but I found the songs which came on in the sauna to be most thought provoking. In order they were: "Roll with the Changes" by REO, "Middle of the Road" by The Pretenders, "Can't Get There From Here" by R.E.M., "I Know A Little" by Lynyrd Skynyrd, and "Dream Police" by Cheap Trick. Yes, yes, I'm an 80's boy. It's amazing when you realize things that seem so obvious, and have been right there in front of you for a long time. How did I chose so many songs that speak to my current situation before I even knew what my current situation was? How long has my unconscious been trying to tell me this stuff.

For example: Roll With the Changes; could the concept be more obviously helpful when transforming? I'm trying to allow myself to do just that. Middle of the Road; I love the lyrics. "Middle of the road, it's trying to find me. I'm standing in the middle of life with my pants behind me." Finding balance and being centered, things I'm also trying to allow. So then I start thinking about how a lead singer or any talented person gets to do those awesome gigs. My guess is that you simply ask yourself, "What am I good at that I can tell others about to get a gig (note I didn't say job) that I love and pays well?" You figure it out and then you go tell people, and since you know its true, you can sell it/yourself fairly easily. Did Krissy Hind do that? So the real question is, what am I good at? I'm a good coach, but that hasn't panned out yet. I need income, preferably lots. Life is abundant, yes?

Back to the list. "Can't Get There From Here". Ever notice the chorus has the lead singing "Can't get there from here." and the background sings "I'll get there, I know the way." To me this is a classic conscious/mental restriction pattern saying I can't do it. The unconscious is underneath saying "I'll do it, I know how" and simply waiting for the brain to get out of the way. How many things is this true for in my life. More than I can currently remember. Next came "I Know A Little". The lyrics say "I know a little 'bout love, baby I'll guess the rest." Two possible hints for me here. First, don't get over confident in what you know, thinking you'll be lucky the rest of the way. Thinking is usually where I get distracted or sidetracked, rather than flowing with the field energy. Second, and kind of opposite but still appropriate, I know enough to understand I the concept of love, and I can just experience and learn more in the moment as it comes along. Both messages seem important to me.

Lastly there was "Dream Police". I love this song and have since it was first recorded. "The dream police, they live inside of my head. The dream police, they come to pee in my bed." "They're looking for me, they're waiting for me. Every single night, they're driving me insane, those men inside my brain." Fun song, and it points me right back to the old mental aspect of my life. I was a pilot for 20 years. Talk about a mental job, with all the regulations and rules and airplane systems to know, my gosh. I was an expert at compartmentalization (word point). I was an excellent aviator. Problem is, I don't fly anymore, and those old brain/mental patterns sometimes get in the way of that allowing I keep mentioning. The song says to me that trying to figure things out instead of just living life is holding me back from having lots of those happy days like the one I had Monday. This of course is not a new concept, but when I get it in my heart, then it gains meaning and perspective. I still find the "no need to know" process to be difficult to live, and I continue to move forward with it. Was the Happy Monday a tease or a taste? I don't really need to know, but I did ask myself anyway. I'm just not waiting for the answer, I've got other things to live.

No final question today, it seems complete right here.